Thursday, September 4, 2014

To begin with...

I just want to say that I'm a girl without a plan. I have two different degrees and I'm about to go back for my third. I guess I just get bored easily. The two paths I previously pursued, were not what I expected. I became disenchanted with things and here I am now, in my third decade, starting over. I just can't settle for something, whether it's a job, a car or a man. I guess I have high standards, but nothing ever lives up to it. I think I need to reevaluate my priorities. But, that's just me, a girl without a plan. Talk to me soon!

Here we are again...

Well, here we are. It's been a few years since I actually put my thoughts down in this forum, but I feel like it is anonymous enough, so here I go.

This summer, I turned 40. In my mind, I'm still 25. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't care less about the number of years that continue to tick away. As long as I have birthdays, it means I'm still alive. I don't understand why some people have such a hard time with it. Does that mean they'd rather be dead? But, I digress, that isn't what I came here today to wax philosophical about.

I've begun to reflect on aspects of my life. I imagined that I would have someone to love, live my life with and grow old by this point. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a hermit by any means. I date, I have friends and I go out. But, a part of me has began to reflect on ghosts of boyfriends past. Did I let him go too soon? Was I correct in letting this one go? Was that one really the one? Was I too self-absorbed at one point to realize he was right under my nose? Should I really have said no when he proposed?

Most of my relationships have been great. But, I've also been in a few bad ones. I've never been beaten by a man, but I have been in abusive relationships. Psychologically abusive, that is. I don't have anything to compare that to, but I felt like the world was a cold, dark place when I was down that rabbit hole. I'm glad I finally dug my way out of it.

Sometimes a girl just needs a hug. It doesn't matter if she's 4 or 40. But let me give you a word of advice. Hug like you mean it.

Monday, May 9, 2011


I don't understand the world sometimes. Why is it that a person who normally puts only good karma out into the world gets back only bad karma?

Maybe the bitterness I'm taking in daily is seeping into the rest of my world subconsciously? I really need a mental health break.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

My own little bubble

Apparently, I live in a bubble. My brother-in-law was telling me a funny story tonight about a man, his wife and his mistress. I proceeded to ask what he was talking about. He said, you know what I'm talking about. Those miners in Chile that have been stranded. I'm like, um, no, haven't heard about it. He proceeded to assure me I had since they've been down there for 38 days! I told him that this was the first I had heard about it and I had no clue that anything was going on. I told him that if it wasn't in People, I didn't know about it. And even if it was in People, I'm a few weeks behind on the weekly's and would not know about it anyway.

So, I'm going to be the first one to tell you this. Listen closely. If something big is going on in the world, please let me know. Otherwise, I'll just be worried about some other trivial problem.

Talk to me soon!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Have you met Minnie?

I know I haven't been very vocal lately, but I'm assuming I've told you already that I got a new car. The last few days have been quite eventful with her. First, he name is Minnie, but not after the mouse. After Minnie Pearl.

So far so good, there was a bit of an incident when I had to get a grill home from Home Depot, but I've gotten over that.

Tuesday, I ended up working late and when I finally left, there were only two other cars still in the lot. I pulled out of the parking place and veered right to go towards the gate. I'm still in the parking lot of work at this point. Out of the corner of my right eye, I thought I saw a car moving, so I slammed on my breaks. From this action, I slammed myself into the steering wheel and my head into the hard plastic thing where the sunglasses go in the ceiling of the car as well as my garage door opener. The thing I saw out of the corner of my eye? My hair, blowing in the air conditioner vent.

Wednesday morning, I went to get in the car to head to work. I had to be there by 9 and was leaving around 8:15. I'm not so sure why I was leaving that early, but that really doesn't matter. I got into the car and tried to start it. Surprise! It wouldn't start. I sat there for a few minutes and tried again. Still nothing. So, I called my roadside assistance and they came running over, an hour later, to jump my battery.

The tow truck guy puts his machine on the battery and says that there is nothing wrong with the battery. He asked me for the key. I told him there wasn't a key, just one of those fobby things. He asked for that. I proceed to dig through my purse to give it to him. After lots of digging and eventually dumping it all out, I looked at him and said I guess it isn't in here. He looked at me and said that must be the problem. He left and I went to work almost an hour late.

Today, I went to lunch with three other people from work. We get back and I jump out of the car, lock it and go to shut the door. The lock pops back to unlock. I did this a few times before realizing it wasn't going to lock. I got back in the car, looked around and tried to do it again. I shut the door and tried to shut it with the push button thing on the handle. That still didn't work. I didn't want to leave it there unlocked before going back in. I got in the car and tried to see if the fobby thing had fallen out of my purse. About five minutes into figuring out the Mystery of Minnie, I realized I had not yet turned it off.

Here's hoping that Saturday doesn't bring any issues with Minnie.

Talk to me soon!

Sunday, September 5, 2010

The amalgamation of me

Miss me? I've had a long, hard summer. It's been quite an interesting few weeks. I have spent the day going over things that have happened, could have happened or should have. But, I guess my whole life is a series of coulda, shoulda, woulda's. Isn't yours?

Today, I watched the season finale of Drop Dead Diva. If you haven't seen it yet, you might want to skip the rest of this paragraph. Grayson can't be dead, he just can't. As for Harrison, she needs to be gone. Yes, she is there to cause drama, I know that. I don't have to like it though. I really like this show, I think it's picking up momentum. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it.

I also did a lot of laundry today. Do you know what my favorite smell is? Snuggle. But, only the Blue Snuggle. The pink and purple are just seriously wrong. I washed everything on my bed, so my bed smells like a big bunch of Snuggle. I'm loving it!

I have also been catching up on a lot of shows that needed to be cleaned out of my DVR. Rizzoli & Isles, White Collar, Psych and The Young & The Restless. I also started catching up on my Netflix.

Have you seen Kick Ass? I heard about it from No Bad Movies, an awesome movie site on here. It was on my Netflix queue before I read about it, I'm not really sure why, or how, but I moved it up the list after reading his review. This little girl curses like a sailor and kicks butt while trying to save her family. It's one that is seriously disturbing and funny at the same time. I'm still on the fence on whether or not I'm recommending it.

I have been able to catch up with a few friends this weekend and for that, I am grateful. Einstein said, "The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once." That's quite a profound statement. Imagine, if everything did happen at once. Does that mean that this world would only last one brief moment? Or, that everyone would have the same lifespan? We would be born and die at the same time as the world. I don't know which would be worse.

Well, I'm going to bring this stream of consciousness to an end. I have no way to wrap it all up in a nice bow to show you how these things all relate. They really don't, other than that they all are things that either popped into my head this weekend or actually happened. I hope you're all doing well. Talk to me soon!!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I don't like where this is going...or maybe I do, I'm not sure yet.

Well, it has been an interesting few weeks, to say the least. I have been blackballed by someone, I'm not really sure why, but someone I thought was a friend, has turned their back. Now, if you're my friend, chances are that I'm going to bend over backwards to do any and everything that is humanly possible to make your life easier. Maybe I'm too much to handle. I'd say that if this were a new friendship, but it's more than two decades old! Yes, I'm playing the pronoun game. I don't want to name any names, but if you are reading this, you know who you are!

Oh well, what is it they say? Out with the old, in with the new? If that's the way you feel, then good riddance. But, if you ever need me, you know I'm here. I'd never turn my back on you, and you know that. I'm here if and when you're ready.

On that note, I've also reconnected with someone that I have known for approximately the same amount of time. Things are good with him and it has been fun reminiscing. He always was fun and we used to work together. So, it is bringing back a lot of memories that I thought were lost forever! It's amazing how our brains work. It brings out a big smile on my face when something comes to light that's been hidden in the caverns of my mind.

I'm a bit sleep deprived and wondering why exactly I am still awake. I have to be up in approximately five hours to get ready for work. I'm going to be quite crabby in the morning, that I can guarantee.

So, that's what's been going on in my life the last few weeks, what's going on in yours? I have to tell you a secret. I'm dying to see "Vampire Sucks." I took a brief poll on Facebook and don't think that I will be the oldest person there. In fact, I may be among the median age group that this is actually being marketed towards.

Speaking of Marketing. I miss my old job. Public Relations, Marketing and Social Media, that's where all the fun is, but, I'm in Sales for a bit. I'm doing what I can to make it through Grad School. I had to get through a few less than choice jobs during my Undergrad, so this should be a walk in the park.

Speaking of Undergrad, guess who I run into at least twice a month now?! Ellen! Now, this means nothing to anyone except Paige, but we get to catch up at Spa Visage over polish while waiting on our pedicure or manicure appointments. She is such an awesome lady to know. She was an amazing mentor and Professor during college and I get to laugh and talk with her and hear about people, places and things that I've lost contact.

My life is one long stream of consciousness. And, I'm a big fan of the ellipsis, in case you hadn't figured that out.