I have decided to go ahead with my self-inflicted moratorium on men. I just cannot win. I finally unlocked my heart after so many years of it being hidden away and protected. What happens? Of course, it gets broken into a million pieces. I have begun to realize that I am meant to be single. I'm not really sure who wrote it, but I read once that some people are single for a season, and some people are single for a reason. I'm pretty sure I'm paraphrasing. I'm hopeful that I've not just committed plagarizm. If I have, I sincerely apologize.
I take this tidbit of wisdom to mean that I am a reason, not a season. In the past, it has been by choice. I am a free spirit and I don't like to be tied down. I have had fun and when I wanted to go somewhere or do something with someone, he was always there. Now, this wasn't a one sided relationship. We were both in it for the same reasons. No strings attached and only one rule. No rules. We were both just having fun.
But, things are no so fun now. I have somehow unlocked the chamber that my heart was encased in and, to put it mildly, everything exploded. I managed to let myself begin to care about him. That was my first mistake, it just went downhill from there. Now, if you know me, you know that I have a laugh that can make everyone in the room smile. If you don't know me, don't think that I'm "all about me." It's true. Anyone will tell you that it's the truth, I'm not being arrogant.
The worst part about all of this is that I do need a man around. I have things that I need help with. Hanging pictures, painting walls, figuring out how to do the whole grout thing behind my sink. I also have a problem with my car. Apparently, it needs more of the cooly juice. My air conditioner is not very cold. Also, who is going to help me change my light bulbs? I'm not tall and I have really high ceilings. I don't do so well with power tools or a ladder. So, I guess I'm going to have to start taking applications for a house boy. All applicants will be considered, please send me your information with your ladder, car and power tool qualifications.
Talk to me soon...M