Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Last night

So, I went to see the movie Land Ho! I highly recommend it, if it's playing near you. It is showing at our art house theatre. Sadly, me, my friend and only one other person were in the showing last night. I hope it sticks around, because it is so funny. With our art house, most movies only last a week. But, run to yours in droves to see it, if you are able. 

After a really funny movie and some bonding time with my pal, I came home and started to contemplate what I needed to do. Laundry, take out the trash, get on my elliptical. I opted for crawling into bed. While I was lying there, drifting off to sleep, I began to think about this certain boy. He is just a friend, but in the past things were more serious. I was just wondering where is now and what he's doing. That was the last thought I remember. 

When I woke up, I was all "what the heck?!" I had this dream about an ex-boyfriend, for clarity I'll call him Finn. (I can call him the b word, we were about 20 when we dated, and no, his real name isn't Finn.) I haven't thought of him in so long, it took me awhile to remember his last name! So, in this dream, he was all "I want you back. We were meant to be together. You're my soulmate, blah, blah, blah." Finn finally convinced me we belong together and then there was this strange car chase. It was in a familiar neighborhood, (that two different exes lived in!) During the car chase, Finn was driving one car, I was in the second with a different guy. We were all trying to get to Finn's parents house. It was all very bizarre. 

Of course, the first thing I did was wonder what happened to Finn. Is he  still with that horrible girl he broke up with me to be with? Did she break his heart (I hoped, I know, I'm a terrible person.) I typed Finn's name into Facebook, and there he was smiling back at me. He had a woman and two kids in the picture, it wasn't the same one he left me for, but I didn't snoop around to find out all about him. I did see he lives one county over now. But, it got me to thinking. Whatever did happen to my ghosts of boyfriends past? This is a rabbit hole, I should probably steer clear of, so I shut down my Mac and just went to work. What are your thoughts? 

Talk to me soon! 

Monday, September 8, 2014

What's a girl to do?

Boys. Men. Fellas. Whatever you want to call your guy, they're all lumped into the same category by being of the male persuasion. 

I'm well past the age that I should put up with things just to be with someone. But, I'm also at a stage in my life where I'm tired of being alone. Don't get me wrong. I don't want a husband. I don't want kids. No one over the age of 25 should call their significant other a boyfriend. To me, or just sounds juvenile. So, what is it that I want? A companion? A lover? A friend? All of the above? These are the burning questions floating through my brain today. 

Then there is the age old question of having a friend with benefits. Natalie, Ashton, Mila, JT and the myriad others do not give is a realistic perspective in their respective movies on this subject. The male protagonist in this real-life relationship is not going to fall in love with me. He's not going to know my favorite flower, or bring me a bouquet of carrots.  He's not going to be the Harry to my quirky Sally. We will not live happily ever after, as they want us to assume, since there are no sequels. And there truly is no Mr. Big. I digress, my apologies. 

Secretly, I'm hopeful if anyone is reading this, they don't know me. I prefer to remain anonymous. On the other hand, if you have a question, comment, snide remark, feel free to let me know your thoughts on the subject. I'd love to hear from you. 

Bonus points to you if you get my pop culture references. 

Talk to me soon. 

Thursday, September 4, 2014

To begin with...

I just want to say that I'm a girl without a plan. I have two different degrees and I'm about to go back for my third. I guess I just get bored easily. The two paths I previously pursued, were not what I expected. I became disenchanted with things and here I am now, in my third decade, starting over. I just can't settle for something, whether it's a job, a car or a man. I guess I have high standards, but nothing ever lives up to it. I think I need to reevaluate my priorities. But, that's just me, a girl without a plan. Talk to me soon!

Here we are again...

Well, here we are. It's been a few years since I actually put my thoughts down in this forum, but I feel like it is anonymous enough, so here I go.

This summer, I turned 40. In my mind, I'm still 25. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't care less about the number of years that continue to tick away. As long as I have birthdays, it means I'm still alive. I don't understand why some people have such a hard time with it. Does that mean they'd rather be dead? But, I digress, that isn't what I came here today to wax philosophical about.

I've begun to reflect on aspects of my life. I imagined that I would have someone to love, live my life with and grow old by this point. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a hermit by any means. I date, I have friends and I go out. But, a part of me has began to reflect on ghosts of boyfriends past. Did I let him go too soon? Was I correct in letting this one go? Was that one really the one? Was I too self-absorbed at one point to realize he was right under my nose? Should I really have said no when he proposed?

Most of my relationships have been great. But, I've also been in a few bad ones. I've never been beaten by a man, but I have been in abusive relationships. Psychologically abusive, that is. I don't have anything to compare that to, but I felt like the world was a cold, dark place when I was down that rabbit hole. I'm glad I finally dug my way out of it.

Sometimes a girl just needs a hug. It doesn't matter if she's 4 or 40. But let me give you a word of advice. Hug like you mean it.

Monday, May 9, 2011


I don't understand the world sometimes. Why is it that a person who normally puts only good karma out into the world gets back only bad karma?

Maybe the bitterness I'm taking in daily is seeping into the rest of my world subconsciously? I really need a mental health break.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

My own little bubble

Apparently, I live in a bubble. My brother-in-law was telling me a funny story tonight about a man, his wife and his mistress. I proceeded to ask what he was talking about. He said, you know what I'm talking about. Those miners in Chile that have been stranded. I'm like, um, no, haven't heard about it. He proceeded to assure me I had since they've been down there for 38 days! I told him that this was the first I had heard about it and I had no clue that anything was going on. I told him that if it wasn't in People, I didn't know about it. And even if it was in People, I'm a few weeks behind on the weekly's and would not know about it anyway.

So, I'm going to be the first one to tell you this. Listen closely. If something big is going on in the world, please let me know. Otherwise, I'll just be worried about some other trivial problem.

Talk to me soon!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Have you met Minnie?

I know I haven't been very vocal lately, but I'm assuming I've told you already that I got a new car. The last few days have been quite eventful with her. First, he name is Minnie, but not after the mouse. After Minnie Pearl.

So far so good, there was a bit of an incident when I had to get a grill home from Home Depot, but I've gotten over that.

Tuesday, I ended up working late and when I finally left, there were only two other cars still in the lot. I pulled out of the parking place and veered right to go towards the gate. I'm still in the parking lot of work at this point. Out of the corner of my right eye, I thought I saw a car moving, so I slammed on my breaks. From this action, I slammed myself into the steering wheel and my head into the hard plastic thing where the sunglasses go in the ceiling of the car as well as my garage door opener. The thing I saw out of the corner of my eye? My hair, blowing in the air conditioner vent.

Wednesday morning, I went to get in the car to head to work. I had to be there by 9 and was leaving around 8:15. I'm not so sure why I was leaving that early, but that really doesn't matter. I got into the car and tried to start it. Surprise! It wouldn't start. I sat there for a few minutes and tried again. Still nothing. So, I called my roadside assistance and they came running over, an hour later, to jump my battery.

The tow truck guy puts his machine on the battery and says that there is nothing wrong with the battery. He asked me for the key. I told him there wasn't a key, just one of those fobby things. He asked for that. I proceed to dig through my purse to give it to him. After lots of digging and eventually dumping it all out, I looked at him and said I guess it isn't in here. He looked at me and said that must be the problem. He left and I went to work almost an hour late.

Today, I went to lunch with three other people from work. We get back and I jump out of the car, lock it and go to shut the door. The lock pops back to unlock. I did this a few times before realizing it wasn't going to lock. I got back in the car, looked around and tried to do it again. I shut the door and tried to shut it with the push button thing on the handle. That still didn't work. I didn't want to leave it there unlocked before going back in. I got in the car and tried to see if the fobby thing had fallen out of my purse. About five minutes into figuring out the Mystery of Minnie, I realized I had not yet turned it off.

Here's hoping that Saturday doesn't bring any issues with Minnie.

Talk to me soon!